Repercussions

So there is this basic life understanding that when you do something there is the likely hood that something can come of it and it might not be favorable. Kind of like a boomarang returns to it's source. So I've spent a huge portion of my life breaking hearts. It's wasn't all for the pleasure of it, sometimes it just was. So it should be natural that eventually someone would have to break mine. Only the thing is I never though that I would be responsible for breaking my own heart. Though I felt I was cutting an arm that needed to be cut so as to get on with it (life as I imaged it). Though now looking back on this situation through the eyes of the one, whom I caused far more harm than I ever intended, I can say I feel your pain. At the time I was causeing the pain I did clearly see and can now admit knowing that I caused sever injuries. I felt it was neccessary. I felt I was being honest and of course honesty is the best policy. I however have learned since then that I hate the serious questions we have to ask ourselves. Even more I hate the serious conversations we have to have with others. Though as amazing an escape artist I am, even I have learned that there comes a time in life that we must face the messes we make and do what we can for the injuries our actions cause. Now I'm not saying hang yourself or anything major. All I'm saying is own your mistakes and be willing to give a helping hand in helping someone recover from the injuries you inflict. WARNING: Don't loose yourself giving a hand to uplift another. Certainly help but know when they are just looking to see you suffer as a way of getting better. Then there's the instance where it's going to need a third party( a counselor) to assist in a healthy and safe mending process. Don't go it alone if you feel the situation seems heavy and a repeat of the original situation that had you feeling cornered and escaping in any manner necessary. 

So here's to clean up on isle 4.

The ending

Sometimes we feel we have it all figured out. No one knows tomorrow is a very true and real line. Cause even when we have it all mapped out and scheduled, it can still turn out differently. So no plan is perfect because of the element we call  life. As someone used to remind me, 'Never say never'. Why? Cause the same way you don't know what tomorrow brings you don't know where you might end back up. So as my father says, as you climb up the ladder of life make sure to leave things on good terms with people. Don't snob anybody and never think yourself too good to hang with anyone. He also said when in Rome do as the Romans do. After all if they were good enough for you on the way up then they should still be good enough on the way down.

Brain pick

   The art of picking your brain. Knowing what choices you make and why you make them. I've found that  playing back events accurately in your mind, kind of like a review of the game, can give you an advantage in life. Much like a review of the game helps you to see what you couldn't while you were playing because you were concentrating on playing the game. Life is similar in that while you're in a moment your focus is limited, it's not possible to see every single angle and possibility. So it helps to review moments in life with elements of occurrences that surprised or aspects that disappointed you. This not only helps you to get a better look at the situation but you get to know what the full situation was. Players review the game to see what they could do better, their strengths, and how they performed.
  Why shouldn't you review moments in your life that hold some significance to you and then with time you can get into the habit of just reviewing everything. Why? Cause why wouldn't you want to be your best you. It also makes you pay attention to what kind of person you are becoming in all situations. Mainly when you are aware of your assets you can see how to best use them. They say the weakest link in a chain determines the strength of the chain. Well if you know your weaknesses then you can see how and what triggers them by reviewing situation where you felt you could be better. Self evaluation is always more effective than when someone else evaluates your performance because we are ten time much harder on ourselves than others, especially when we don't have to share the information of our finding. So know what you need to know about yourself by reviewing what you do, so you can be in control of who you are becoming and where you are going as well as what you stand for. So get to picking you don't know what you'll find.

The looking glass or a realistic reality of dreams.

The beauty of life is you should not always be one thing and that one thing all the time.  Just like you will have sad days some days while others will be happy ones. The important thing is understanding that life must always be a balance.  As long as you don't always go around feeling like you are a failure or look happy even when you are not, you will probably be just fine.  Life is real.  This means that you will have conflicts and triumphs so long as you keep trying your best.  

The one thing life and situations should never relieve you of is your ability to fight.  Knowing when to fight and when to rest is crucial to keeping the balance. As well as knowing what is worth fighting for.  Though what is worth fighting for is best decided by you seeing as you get to deal with the consequences. Know what's important to you and what you can do away with. 

Don't drop the ball of life, that juggling act we all carry out everyday maintaining balance for the sake of whatever reason we seek balance, then again it's just a mess when it does fall to the ground.  If I were you I wouldn't worry about dropping the ball till I did. What would be the point of worrying seeing as you were unable to prevent it.  Is having to clean a mess really worth you losing peace of mind over. All the lost moments that could have been better spent if you weren't so focused on what shouldn't go wrong or what inevitably did go wrong. Deal with life as each stage comes not before the outcome has even showed up.  Enjoy dreaming and if it doesn't work dream some more. While you dream please don't forget to work on reality making it a better picture and putting in the work required also. 

Reality Struck!

Everyone has an opinion a notion of how it all should be but what do you do when reality never meets up- should you fight or just except that that just isn't your story. I'm speaking of fighting for a relationship. That moment when it all begins to fall apart into reality when the Cloud 9 everything is perfect dust wears off. When you and them start to picture your future. Everyone will give you advice but in the end its your move. Don't beat yourself up whatever you decided no matter the outcome. As long as you gave it your best. Cause in the end your best is all you have to give.